It's been two months without you... And oh how hard it is every. single. day. I almost feel like it is only getting harder sweet girl.. There has been so much going on since you have been gone, trying to keep busy and getting situated in our house. Your daddy and I have been on a few trips. California, Mexico, and Seattle! We had so much fun. In fact, the trip to Mexico was gifted to us by XCITE. The sweet salesmen each donated one of their sales for your dad and I to go enjoy a week in paradise! It was so sweet of them to do that.
We have been so blessed with so many people who have shown love, support, and charity to your dad and I. But of course, I would trade it all just to have you here. But it comforts me knowing that you no longer are in pain. You no longer have to suffer in that body of yours. But oh... how much I miss you! How much I miss those little toes of yours, and your sweet little cheeks I would kiss countless times a day. I sometimes wonder what you are doing in your sweet little spirit... Wondering if you're with your daddy and me, or running and playing around. But I most definitely know that you are working hard. You are trying to get all of us back to our Heavenly Father! I remember at your funeral, I could feel you so so close! I always love that sweet feeling of knowing you're right beside me, holding my hand and comforting me. There have been countless times, even now, where I will break down and need to call your dad to ask if everything will be okay. Your dad is amazing Annie. He always knows exactly what to say.
Well.. The exome sequencing test that we sent in back in May is still in the works. This will determine if your dad and I will be able to have anymore kids or if we will have to consider adoption, etc. I have been emailing the geneticist up at Primary Children's and she has told us they are needing to do further investigation on the Exome Sequencing. We aren't sure what that means, but we know we just need to be patient and wait until we get an answer. And that's all we are hoping and praying for, ANY type of answer!
One amazing thing that I am SO excited to be doing is... I have been working with Alex and Ani and March of Dimes and am doing an event in remembrance of YOU! How excited I am! You have been such an amazing example to thousands of people Annie and so many people loved you so much! So many people prayed for you night, and day. This event is so exciting because 15% of all of the proceeds will be going to March of Dimes! I am so excited for this because March of Dimes is all about the health of babies and their mothers! I hope that through out my life, I can be able to thank everyone for all that they did for you, your daddy and I. So many people served us and your dad and I can't thank people enough. We want your name and story to be remembered Annie. We want people to know our story to help others when they are going through hard times in their lives. Because so many people helped us and are still helping us through our hard time.
Annie, I just miss you so so much. I have you in my head 24/7. When I go to bed, in my dreams, at school, while I'm cleaning the house.. I am always thinking of you. I still sleep with the blanket that you were cuddling with the night you passed away... And guess what? It still has your scent on it! I roll it up tight so the scent doesn't go away and keep it underneath my pillow. Oh how happy it makes me that I can still smell your scent on things! I know you're always close to me sweet girl! You are always in my heart and will never ever be forgotten! Not for one second little girl! I love you so much! Oh how much I would love to just give you a big hug and snuggle with you for even a minute! But I know this earth life is tiny compared to eternity. How grateful I am to know that I will be able to live with you and your dad forever. I love you sweet girl. Keep coming in my dreams!
Love,
Mommy
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| Giving you a bath:) A few days before you went to heaven:) |
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